Why I am starting again..

I decided to start to this blog as away of documenting and holding myself accountable as I try to regain my fitness. I have previously blogged about my efforts as I started running nearly 10 years ago at this stage. Time flies, as the much over used saying goes!

Like a lot of people in 2020 I put on a few pounds, a series of Covid lockdowns, 5K restrictions and pizza Friday's all attributed to my weight gain. But if I'm honest I just over ate. I had already gained some weight during 2019, I am an emotional eater and 2019 was an emotional year!  I started 2020 with best of intentions and settled into a good routine. But, the first Covid lockdown put an end to my good intentions especially with regards my eating habits. Working out during the lockdowns was never an issue as there was little else to do. Even though during the lockdown I worked out it wasn't the same I couldn't find the same intensity as I had when in a gym setting. I got back into the gym in July 2020 and had started to get into a routine with both my fitness and diet. When another 2 lockdowns towards the end of 2020 and start of 2021 plus a lot of emotional eating left me not a few pounds overweight but extremely overweight. Although I had some fitness, if I was not as heavy I would have been a lot fitter. And I realize as I write that many people managed to maintain or lose weight during the last few years I just couldn't get in right mind frame and whatever else about weight loss and body transformation etc.. mindset is key and my mind was not set it was distracted and all over the place.

I worked out and kept moving but looking at myself on video during the 2021 CrossFit open made me feel disgusted with myself if I'm honest. And this is about honesty. I'm all about body positivity but I didn't feel happy in my body I had no definition a few years previously I could see Muscle now they were lost under a mound of flab. But seeing my lumbering body, It was the shock I needed to pull myself out of my funk. My post Covid menopausal body needed to change!!

In 2021,  I set about regaining myself and my muscles. And when gyms reopened I carried my larger self through the doors. Mortified and embarrassed by the way I looked. Not that anyone in there said anything. I set about finding a routine and working at getting back on track. I love going through the doors of my gym I truly love being able to sweat out the day and leaving it all in a pool of sweat on the gym floor. I was never the fittest but I was fit and consistent and trying to recapture that was going to take a hell of a lot longer than it took to lose.  The weight loss was slow but steady and I was finding a good routine with my classes. 

Then an injury to my sacroiliac joint at the end of October put me out of action
and just as I felt ready to head back,  a knee injury in January put me right out of action again. So now I am here readying myself to head back to the gym for the first time in 4months. My weight loss has slowed but I'm ready to take on the rest of 2022 head on.. wish me luck!

I will check in every week or so. Writing it all down will be good for me and hopefully interesting for anyone tempted to read it..